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I never thought we will ENDED SO SOON for all I know our relationship is the PERFECT ONE. All i know is all the SWEET WORDS u have said to me are TRUE. All u have done to me is true. We’ve doin great and we have a great time.I was THANKFUL then to GOD for he gave a guy like u. I HAVE LOVED U SO MUCH but then suddenly THINGS CHANGE. The next i know is u found SOMEBODY close to ur heart (closer than me). Upon hearing ur explanations, I FEEL AS IF I’M LYING IN A COFFIN ALREADY that I NEVER WANTED TO  WAKE UP AND DIE so that I CAN’T FEEL THE PAIN I FEEL INSIDE. it is like U STABBED A SHARP POINTED KNIFE INTO MY HEART  that THE SCAR U HAVE LEFT CAN’T BE HEALED BY TIME OR EVEN A SURGERY. i wanna HATE u but i just can’t coz i know i can’t blame u for u are only human who wanted TO BE HAPPY. i wanted TO QUESTION GOD why he let these things happened but i realized GOD WANT ME TO BE MORE STRONGER in facing the challenges like this. God wanted me TO LEARN and MOVE ON for the RIGHT GUY WILL COME IN MY LIFE not today or tomorrow but one day.  God made me realized also the U ARE NOT THE RIGHT GUY I WANNA SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE with. U made me FALL IN LOVE but left me with just a BLINK OF AN EYE. U never know how much u have HURT ME, how much my HEART CRY FOR AGONY and how much my HEART BLEEDS. U made me feel so LONELY that i wanted to SCREAM LOUD as if nobody hear me. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONGthat u will let these things happened? The other side of my mind rEgReT WHY i have to meEt u only in the end u will just LEFT MY HEART CRYING IN PAIN. A lot of QUESTIONS have crossed on my MIND but only SOME of them were ANSWERED. How i wish i am a ROBOT who don’t have FEELINGS and who can’t feel the PAIN i am EXPERIENCING NOW. i wish i have a SPECIAL POWER to let the PAIN HEAL IMMEDIATELY so that my heart will STOP BLEEDING again and again. Moreover, i wish can ERASE the MEMORIES i have so that i will not THINK OF YOU at all. Lastly, I WISH GOD WILL GUIDE ME IN MY COPING DAYS AND HELP ME MOVE ON TOTALLY.